I don't get why is this world so ruin and spoiled. I lost my mind when I've been treated so unfairly, injustice and I'm being dumped aside. Even for a person like me, I've been dumped by a lot of people from other forums, I've been gutted out from their site and they can even understand how I supposed to feel. I feel like every single time when someone asked me to change but sometimes when you get used to something, you don't change. The only change you can get is by correcting the change. Sometimes, when I feel like I don't get what I want, I just felt destroyed by what I don't have. For example, like now, you guys are wondering "Why is Samuel so eager to get more stuff on his site and the weird thing why does he want to compare himself to sites like dmd247?". "He should never compare himself to dmd247. We all know who wins here, "dmd247"". I do all these nonsense because I get the feeling like I'm being dumped from a somebody to a nobody. I'm being thrown out from a very well fed community with great people and I know I have attitude issues but it doesn't mean when someone can't control it, then he will never control it at all. The truth is most sites have banned me including dmd247. If @nitrocell wants to ban me go ahead "BAN". I'm open arms willing to receive the ban since my spirit has been broken and banned from many sites. Possibly by now, I feel so negative. I want to give up all these hard-work and just let dmd247 wins over me. I felt completely defeated. I know I'm not rich. Even my helpers / posters are not rich, they can't afford movies like dmd247 does but we have one thing. We have help posting and that's what makes me happy. Do you think I can afford sooo many movies and shows like this? No I can't. I felt so broken right now. I'm completely destroyed. I know. I'm so unlucky and I'm poor and I have no money to afford these many stuff to share with people. I'm a bad luck to everyone. No one should help me on my site which is a curse not a blessing. I admit I have friends but no one wants to talk to me because I'm either possibly aggressive or I have a negative mindset which makes them feel like I'm like a really bad fengshui. I came to this virtual world to talk, mobilize myself from the outside world and make friends who are willing to help me even if I fall. Why couldn't everyone help me out on my site? I know this world is unfair. I've been treated unfairly and inconsistent in my exams, I've been dumped and many bad things happened to me. This doesn't mean I am evil like gunmans who shoot people down for satisfaction. I am just broken-hearted by how big this community and other community and I seemed to have lack of attention and aid. I'm a banned fugitive. Even warez sites have kicked me out for my attitude. I have nowhere else to go after this except stay on my site (if it could even survive or let it shut down) or continue my last post on iTD Music.